I've used this picture on my blog several times. It's so, well, ME. But I've made a decision that I'm posting here for all the world to see. I found a website that just makes sense - it's all so logical and I am finally determined...
to quit smoking.
This program is called "Become an Ex" and it's all about re-learning life without cigarettes. It just makes sense. Instead of trying a drug (which I also intend to use to increase my chances of success) I have to practice being a non-smoker. For the next 2 weeks, I'll keep track of when and why I smoke. I have to identify my triggers, and then I have to practice doing the things I do while smoking (such as driving) without cigarettes. It's all just so logical and I think if I really have to THINK about what I'm doing, it will help me understand that this is just about the most stupid thing I've ever done and how happy I CAN be without them. I've discovered just today, how much I want to AVOID going out and having a cigarette just because I don't want to look at this paper at the end of the day and see that I smoke.
I've always felt like such a strong person, but I've smoked since I was 16 - thirty six years - do you know, that's the first time I've actually counted that out - but nicotine has had such a strong hold on me. I'm going to be updating my blog as often as I feel I need to in order for you all to tell me how I CAN do this - I'm going to need your support.
I've been cancer free for 5 years. I dearly love my kids and grandkids and I have a new one on the way (Grace and I are calling it "Jellybean"). I want to see Adam have his kids too.
I CAN and WILL do this!